17 To you

My Love, I am so tired.

I haven't been sleeping well, and I do not know why.

It's taking a toll, not being able to sleep for only a few hours a night, and not continuously.

I wake up every 2 hours... 😭

Please help me. 

16 To Me

I have learned to hack the system.

 I am now able to impersonate a healthy person and can trick others, too.

Today, my nutritionist asked how my eating was, and I said 8 out of 10. 

The reality is, I enjoy looking for food, but when it is time to eat it, the joy is not there. 

I eat with my eyes; the more it looks appetizing, the more I want it. 

 But my mouth did not like it, or at least didn't enjoy it. 

 The only food I truly enjoy now is eggs. Any way you cook it, but scrambled, I'm ok. 

 I do wish to enjoy food again. 

But right now, I just see it as a need to survive and nothing else. 

If it is possible not to eat and still survive, I will probably choose that.